While I am a writer (both in the amateur and actually-published sense), I'm not great when it comes to chatting or trying to hold an RP session. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to what I'm willing to type-out and it's difficult for me to maintain a session knowing that I (feel like) I could fuck it all up with one wrong spelling or punctuation error lol.

That's on me and I just hope that all you horny bastards know that it's nothing personal and that it's entirely because my brain is a broken mess of neurosis that, one of these days, will probably get properly diagnosed. In truth, I'm just as horny as all of you wonderful guys and gals, I'm just terrible at expressing it in an expedient way :P My failure in the way of timeliness is second only to my failure in the way of monetary income lol.

Take care, stay safe, don't get sick, and know that you're loved, even if it's just by one weird girl on the internet that lives in a cave on the top on a Kentuckian mountain lol.

Edit: If this post is unacceptable by site standards, I apologize. I have not interacted with the forum very many times and I was apparently unaware that posts of a directly personal nature are discouraged.

If, instead, I can redirect the topic to a more useful one, I would like to do so. As such, perhaps there are some writing recommendations for me to make the RP process easier? I understand that it's supposed to be a spur-of-the-moment sort of thing and that I shouldn't stress so hard about what I've said, but that's just so hard for me to do xD

I stress about the littlest shit, like what kind of candy bar I'm going to buy compared to all of the others on display, so being stress-free about sexually explicit messages I'm sending without editing them is... well, it's almost impossible for me lol.

I do not understand why a forum post was necessary, you could've just DM'd the people that wanted to RP with you and tell them why you don't want to that way???

I understand your confusion and apologize for it. This post basically originated from a moment of frustration wherein I spent somewhere around 45 minutes turning RP requests down. I am fully aware that making a forum post will not rectify my situation, particularly on a porn site, but my mindset was not in the greatest situation at the time of posting.

I apologize. Additionally, if my English is not of the greatest quality, or appears somewhat stilted, I also apologize. I am still learning and/or translating.

Should I fully delete this thread?

I mean, that's kind of up to you. I'm not judging in any way, I was just sharing what I felt like would've been a better option. You don't need to apologize to me.

I can relate, I honestly can't enjoy RP'ing much anymore because of how much I stress over typos, or not replying fast enough, or not being able to match the quality of my partners replies. Anxiety is such a pain in the ass. lol

But you know what? Just find a good friend or someone who you enjoy chatting with in general, and RP with them. It's such a relief to RP with someone you're comfortable with and you know won't care about little mistakes you make. That won't fully stop your brain from freaking out over a typo, but at least you'll have someone there to remind you that they're still having a lot of fun, regardless of the errors. And that feels nice to hear, honestly. :)

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I have never interacted with you before but I immediately feel everything you've said, heh. Role-playing is hard for me too since I'm already a socially anxious person and tend to need some time trying to think up a response I can be happy with. Combined with being very anal about my typos, it can get a little exhausting playing with new people or multiple at once. Sometimes I think just having a more casual space to play in would help alot.

I don't think you should have to feel like you can't say all this, and I'm sure the people you play with appreciate being let known instead of having to go through everyone individually.

I can look past typos and going offline for a while. It happens to all of us, including me. I'm an anxious person myself, and it tends to lead into straight ghosting people, but I'm a victim to addiction, so I keep coming back lol